Friday, September 7, 2012
Unlike Peter Gibbons, my dream isn't to do nothing. Doing nothing is actually something that freaks me out. I get fidgety in no time and start thinking of all of the things I could and should be doing.
Like Peter, though, lately, I find myself losing care for things that I normally care about. I find myself getting angry at the small things. I find myself feeling tense more often than not. I'm just in a weird funk and I'm not quite sure what I need to do to shake it off. If I knew, I would have done it by now. Like, for serious, I'm over this weird phase of my life. I'm ready for some good old fashioned happiness and comfort. I want to appreciate the little things. I want to find the positives in everything. I want to laugh big belly laughs. I want to smile more and glare less. Basically, I just want to leave these blahs behind and replace them with sunshine, daisies, marshmallows, rainbows, and ponies.
I'm not one to vent on the ol' blog, but when I feel this way, it's hard to put together a happy-joy-joy post for all of you. Today, I decided to just be genuine about my feelings, not for sympathy, but for the sake of being real. It's like when I post goofy or unflattering photos of myself, it's just another way for all of you to realize that no blogger's life is perfect. We all get down. We all look like crap sometimes. We're not always having the time of our lives, taking magazine worthy photos. Our houses get dirty, our DIY projects fail and sometimes we find ourselves in a funk. We're all real people, remember?
I think sometimes it's nice to know that and it's helpful to keep it in mind when things get tough.
So anyway, I've decided I'm going to be proactive about this funky situation I'm in. This weekend, I'm going to do some soul searching. I'm going to start out by making a list of all things I want in my life and all the things I don't. Then I'll break that up into the things I can control and the things I can't. If I can't control it, then I need to find a way to just let it go and go with the flow. If I can control it, then I need to determine how to make the best of it or what I need to change to turn the negatives in my life into positives. Who knows, maybe by the time I'm done this little exercise, my life will take shape again.
What do you do when you're in a funk?